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I’m about to be a very busy person. I’m really excited about that. There are so many things going well in my life, so much good. I love that I’ve been seeing a chiropractor, I switched out my chair for a yoga ball, I’ve been fasting once a week, eating less food, spending less money on food, swimming, working out (I lost 10 pounds this week!) and getting back into shape.

And now I think I have the time and energy I need to heal old wounds. The ones I’ve been ignoring or picking at for years. Nothing big and exciting, more like repetitive motion injuries of the psychological variety. Being alone makes you lonely, there’s nothing you can do about that. But reaching out because you can’t stand the idea of being lonely… When I started dating, things with me were a bit raw. I just wanted to move on. I must confess though, there are some things I may have forgotten about myself in the process, and I want to get back in touch with that. For example: I went hiking exactly once this summer. That is horrible. That is what alone but not alone gets me. I don’t want to feel constantly alone when I’m not single, hell, I don’t want to feel that when I am single…

So I face the new year ready to make an honest go of next year. This year has been a series of challenges, both professional and personal, and thus a year of growth. Anyone I know will tell you that I am not perfect, but I think most of them would agree that I am a good guy, and that, either way, I am working on it.

Peace and love to anyone who reads this. I hope the best for you this holiday season…